Man...thy name is 'selfish'....

Do we really fear death? I mean do we really fear our ‘own’ death or do we fear it in general sense? ok..wait..now dont start looking at me with a frown...i love to discuss death...i find it very interesting and amusing...something which is beyond our comprehension..something we will never understand fully...so death does fascinate me...and i am not a pessimist...(almost on the lines of my name is khan..and 'm not a terrorist:))... so i dont understand why the topic is such a taboo in the first place..just why cant we discuss 'death' openly like all the other topics in the sun?...the moment somebody whispers death...people start looking around for the culprit...

oh very well...where was I...yes...so what i think...(if it at all counts)…..all we fear about is 'death of others' around us…death of our near and dear ones to be precise…what if they left us mid-way…what will happen to us if they leave us…will it be difficult to live without them…it is almost never ‘what will happen to them’…..its almost always ‘what will happen to us minus them’…and that’s why we are afraid of death….always selfish..…the human beings…always so selfish..…its never about ‘others’…at the core...its always about 'us'...its always about 'me'...

Living & Non-living...

 Saee : Is mango a living thing?
Me: No
Saee: Why?
Me: Does it move? Does it talk like you?
Saee: No
Me: Does it eat or drink like you?
Saee: No
Me: Thats why it is a non-living thing
Saee: Then why the mango tree is a living thing...if we get mangoes from the same tree?

Thats the end of conversation...i couldnt answer in a flash...and she was happy that i couldnt answer :)

But yes that sets me thinking...as if i need an excuse to think...why a fruit is not a living thing....'cos once ready, we pluck it from the tree...we take it away from a living thing and make it non-living...but that doesnt mean we are the culprits...it is sure to fall down one way or the other because now it has stopped to grow..it has reached its maximum capacity to grow.....

So in short...a thing which is not growing...or which stops growing becomes a non-living thing....'can move', can walk, can eat, can drink all are secondary things....

But the question remains...if the mango still contains a seed that will potentially give birth to a living thing yet again...is itself in the transitory stage...tree-mango-seed-tree.....in the sequence...but still mango and seed are non-living...

ok..another question...do we consider 'seed' as living? no..why...? it actually will start growing now...it should be considered a living thing...why wait for seed to grow into a plant to consider it living?

Can we apply the rule to us? No...but the bottom line is same...when we stop growing....we are dead or as good as dead...we sometimes call it death...sometimes call it stagnation...when we are alive....

How funny...a fruit when dead ( i mean theoretically dead...stops growing) is when we can use it most....and a person when dead has no use whatsoever....

Heaven and Hell...

Ok...so the that day finally....'m in front of God....in a queue waiting....oh...that never changes...a queue it is...just like the good old earth days....and 'm a person who firmly believes in following the rules...no i mean i was a person...hard to believe there is no 'i am' now...anyway...forget the 'tense' part...'m no more alive....so all these earthly things...why should i worry...so not 'i am' but 'i was'....ok...

...so the God is sitting on the throne and deciding the fates of people one by one...heaven or hell....a place of pure bliss (or eternal boredom maybe...) or a place where u wil be sent for infinite punishment for the finite number of sins u hv commited in whole life...now thats  a tad unfair..isnt it...

anyway....my turn....God looks at me..and consults with his advisor....complicated? yes...very complicated....decision is difficult...my merits and demerits are being carefully evaluated....he deliberates..deliberates...and decides...'take her to paradise'....
my fate is sealed....everybody moves in anticipation...but i stay put...confident, assured.....not again...i mean 'after my life'....:)

and say...''oh..wait...i dont want that...i thought death will finally clear me of my existence....i dont want to live in either heaven or hell....if u want to reward me...clear my existence...if u want to punish me...clear my existence...give me total freedom....delete me completely...give me just that 'death'....and nothing else....

And i thought 'death' is the end in itself...the end of 'choices'...