Oh my GOD....

I am using a new method to tackle my daughter…these days…in any case she is beyond the ‘tangible’ powers in the house…and doesn’t listen to anybody…certainly has a mind of her own…there’s no other way…its always and always ‘only her way’ all along…so inevitably I hv used a story…just like my mother must hv used the same for me ..(tu lahan astana mi pan tula hech sangat hote type)..…there’s a certain ‘devbappa’ sitting in the sky and his main job is to watch over the kids…how do they behave…do they listen to elders? Do they brush their teeth in the morning and before going to sleep….do they eat properly…and all sorts of stuff…and when he sees a child behaving like a good boy/girl…he writes it in a book…(a red book for good work, a black book for bad behaviour..thats my daughters invention…she is somehow fascinated with colours...everything has to be associated with colours...so even ‘bappa’ has to have a color…)…and that has worked temporarily J….you can see her sitting on a window pane and staring at the sky curiously..and wondering what her ‘favourite bappa’ is doing right now…she has eaten well today…she has finished her tiffin…is bappa observing..? is he writing in the red book…(she wanted the pink color for the book and the bappa…but bappa is a boy so no pink color…red color instead…black is out of question….’Bappa’ is certainly in her good books J)…

That has set me thinking….kids understand all the stuff so easily and correctly…they know once the things r explained to them….if you behave well…u r in God’s good books and if u don’t behave well…u r invariably in bad books….its all about getting a zero at the end of calculation….thats how it works…

So what do I believe? Does the God exist? Yes...definitely it does…otherwise how will u explain inexplicable phenomena going around you…ok so if it does, whats its purpose? …and why there’s so much evil around in the world…why there r crimes in the world…why there is so much pain in the world…if God is supposed to be watching all the time…only plausible explanation acc. to me…is… God is not meant for all these things in the first place…the basic assumption seems to be wrong….we r working in wrong premises…God is not there to make your life perfect all the time…he can not and will not take responsibility for each and every person in the world…he has given you powers, talent, virtues, capacity and other things…and how you work on it..how u use it...its entirely upon you..its your decision and responsibility…don’t blame him if things go wrong…and don’t ask for free favours.. …no blackmailing please....’Bhagvad Gita’ has the right message…’nothing is in your hand…everything is decided…but that doesn’t mean you will sit idle…you must work hard without blaming your luck….and without expecting the results…and if u fail…work harder next time…’

and then another question…whats diff between a religious person and an atheist? I do not (willingly) indulge nor I believe in ‘Puja’…I (willingly) don’t go to temples most of the times…when passing a temple, I don’t pray…I never go to a temple before an interview or an exam or anything imp in my life...and I haven’t ask him any favours in my life….but sometimes…when I need a bit of courage to do things…when I stumble for a moment before taking a step forward…my hand accidentally touches the Ganpati pendant I wear all the time…quietly asking for blessings….quietly gaining that inner strength back in me…quietly checking that ‘the invisible power’ is somewhere with me…even if I cant see it…as if I am touching an elder’s feet….does that make me an atheist? Or a believer?  Why can’t I label myself…one way or the other? Do I fear God? What does the concept ‘mukti’ means?

…Questions never seem to end….